i need to vent

but all i can say out loud is:

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soon i will stop feeling like this...

at least hopefully less often...

at least that is the plan...

i came to write a blog because i felt like writing.

i wanted to write something positive and uplifting.

so far... i've got not much of anything.

lately things have been kind of crap.. but I still have hope. things will get better. i just need to be patient a bit longer.

i'm going to have a good long chat with one of my best friends in about an hour. she usually makes me feel better about the world, life, and myself. i truly value my friends who are good for my heart.

maybe after that i'll have something happy to write about :)

.arms.

i hope that you see right through my walls
i hope that you catch me because i'm already falling